Monday…

So it’s Monday and I feel absolutely drained today. I kept waking up in the middle of the night, like a lot of times and I have these crazy vivid dreams. However, I am awake at the same time. I look over to where my closet is which doesn’t have a door, it’s just like a cloth that hangs in front  of it and I swear it changed, it just looks like something else. So then I fall back to sleep only to awake again and look on the other side of the room where there are a few things scattered on the floor like my slippers and my purse. I’m like looking at these items and one of them as been removed. I don’t know if I’m losing my mind or what. Oh and then I hear a whisper in my ear, “Hey.” I did not freak out, instead I just fell asleep. I know most people would freak out if they heard that but I feel like I’m so used to it because it does happen often.

When I was little I used to see things (this is actually true). Things that would freak you out, I’m talking ghosts. I remember being small maybe like 5 years old and seeing books fly across the wall that was in a huge bookshelf, which is funny because my parents still have that bookshelf. Anyways I used to see dead people (spirits). I never told anyone before, I think I was scared or ashamed or a little bit of both. It wasn’t until recently I let my parents in on the secret. So anyway when that would occur I would freak out, I freaked out for years until finally they stopped. I wouldn’t see them anymore but I still felt them around me. I remember moving to a different house with my parents and I didn’t think anything about those ghosts because I figured they were gone. Not until a few years later I used to hear voices calling my name and things falling on the floor. I became scared shitless again. I didn’t tell my parents I just let it continue to bother me. Eventually as I got older those things started to go away, it wasn’t until I moved in with my then boyfriend now husband that they stopped completely.

Then we decided to buy a house and within the first few days things were normal and I forgot about all the ghostly business until one morning I was sweeping the floor and I heard a man’s voice saying “hello.” I’m like oh boy here we go again, not another haunted house or ghosts following me around. I didn’t hear from that man again. I believe that spirits are out there and they try and contact you if you just listen. I try and welcome them nowadays but I feel like my brain has closed that part. The only time it does happen is when I sleep, I hear a voice in my ear when I’m half in and half out.

Okay that’s enough for today, you probably think I’m nuts but that’s okay. Everyone has their opinions 🙂 Hope everyone has a good Monday!

M.

Inspiration

I’m so glad that I can be an inspiration to someone. Nothing makes me feel better about myself then knowing that I’m doing something right in my life. By writing my book and publishing it on Amazon I encouraged a few people to write their own books and publish them. Sometimes life doesn’t go as you planned, it throws you a few curve balls now and then but when you find what you’ve been looking for and find the purpose of your life it just makes you feel amazing.

I wasn’t going to put this out there but I feel like it will push me more. I recently submitted my new novel to an agent and it was turned down. She said she liked it and considered it but the way the market was she wasn’t sure if it would be a good idea. I know hearing those words hurt at that moment but it just pushes me harder to find someone that will be the perfect person. I know that my new novel is going to be a big seller, I can feel it.

My husband said to me yesterday, “You know ever since you’ve been writing, I’ve never seen you happier.” He’s got a point there, I never been happier, this is like my happy place. Maybe my books won’t ever sell to their capacity but the point is that I wrote them. They are nobody else’s but mine. I put a lot of work into them and my thoughts and creativity are put on paper for everyone to see. I am proud of that fact.

Thank you all so much for reading and the support.

M.

Proud

The weekend wasn’t that eventful, however I did audition at a theatre that’s local in my area. I was super nervous about it but I did it!! I sometimes amaze myself doing something like that. I just wanted to share that with everyone!

In other news I am nearly done my second novel and very excited about it! I can’t wait to share it with everyone! 

Hope everyone has a good rest of the weekend and if your somewhere on the other side of the world you’re probably in the middle of the night or it’s already Monday where you are. Enjoy your day/night. 

M. 

Have to Admit

I’m really excited about my new novel that I’m working on. I’ve been working crazily on it and I absolutely love it. I’m hoping that it will wrap up soon so I can bring it to you lovely people. 

I feel like my mind has so many thoughts about many different ideas for new novels. This is such a wonderful thing and I’m so excited. I don’t think I’ve been this excited about anything in a real long time, except maybe when I was getting my puppies haha. 

I come home from work and I just want to jump on my laptop and write more. I can’t believe that this is happening to me. I never thought that I would be able to write and it come true on paper. Happy happy joy joy! Sorry I’m a little crazy about happiness! 

Hope everyone has a great day or night wherever you may hail from 🙂

Don’t forget to check out my novel Not Alone on Amazon under a Melissa Rose Bushey. Thanks for the support everyone!

M. 

Sometimes ya have to…

Sometimes you have to forget the bullshit and just go with the flow. Stop listening to what people tell you because it could make you feel even worse. 

Lately people have been saying things to me and they think that it makes me feel good when really it makes me feel like shit. When those people say these things to me I feel like they’re pushing me away which in reality I could care less, they’re not really important people in my life. Just people giving me their opinions which I consider but in the end you should listen to what your intuition tells you. 

So something else happened this morning, I thought I lost my flash drive with all my writing on it. I know what you’re thinking, how come I don’t save it to like a million other places incase this happens? I believe I will now because I was freaking out. I was writing this weekend and I left my flash drive on the desk, this morning I went to grab it and it was gone. I’m like you gotta be kidding me. I started throwing things around and then I picked up my couches, yes I picked them up, my adrenaline was pumping so hard I didn’t care or realize what I was actually doing until I spotted the flash drive under the one couch. I crawled on the ground and I grabbed that shit hahaha. I’m like oh my precious, I’ll never let you out of my sight again 🙂 

So that’s my little story today and I know the two things I wrote about are completely different from one another but I wanted to write what I felt like today. Because hey that’s what I do. 

Have a good day y’all!

M. 

Hey

I just wanted to say hello tonight. Nothing much is going on right now. Had a snow day today from work so that made me happy. 

Went to the flower show yesterday which was Holland themed. It was beautiful and it smelled amazing. So many tulips in a room, I’ve never seen so many. There were wooden shoes, windmills, tiny little cottages, a train set, and many more themes that I can’t exactly think of. I was happy to experience the show this year, although it was super crowded it was still fun. 

Anyways I hope everyone had a wonderful evening and it’s almost the middle of the week aka hump day! Much love! 

M. 

A Good Day…

Today was a good day. Was able to spend some time with my hubby after going to a psychic and she told me some things that kind of hurt but today I tried to make the best of it. I will not be mentioning what she told me so please don’t ask. Anyways today we hung out and it was amazing, we went to a casino and won a huge amount of money and he splurged on me. He said I deserved it, that put a smile on my face and it made my heart melt. 

I feel grateful that we got to spend some time together because we don’t really. He’s always working and our schedules conflict. He made me feel special today and that’s all that matters. So to the husband that made me feel like a queen today, I appreciate you very much and love you so much. 

Tomorrow I’m spending one on one time my with my best friend who is also my mama and we’re going to the flower show. We’ve been going for the last few years and I’m excited, I’ll share in my experience tomorrow. Anyways hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! 

Much love. 

M.