Just Happy..

In thinking about what I could write today or these past few days I found it hard to come up with something. I like to try and be positive but some days it’s hard. My book on Amazon isn’t selling as much as I hoped it would’ve but I have to expect that, I’m an unknown author who is just starting out. I should just be happy because I actually accomplished writing a novel. For my next book I’m going to try and see if I can actually get an agent for. I’m excited for it, it’s a lot different then my first novel where it was a thriller, this one is just a fiction book geared for basically anyone.

I’m blessed to have this gift of creativity that I didn’t really know I had. I feel even blessed for people reading my words, it makes me feel so good. They actually took the time out of their lives to read a story that I wrote.

I enjoy what I’m doing but some days I find myself becoming discouraged. I must not let those feelings take over me. If I fall down I need to get right back up, if I get turned down from an agent I will not let that stop me. I will do what I can to keep throwing my novels out there. If I can’t get signed I will be happy that I can at least be on Amazon and sell my novels. A lot of people have dreams and no one should shy away from them, just push yourself harder and you never know what you can accomplish. I couldn’t believe when I wrote my first novel, I printed it out and I thought, “Wow did I write all that?” I was so excited. Tons of pages and tons of words on those pages.

Follow your dreams! You are what you make yourself.

M.

Today..

Today is the day I jam out to some music and get some writing done. I’m feeling really happy today and I just want to get up and dance around. I love days like those, feel like life is going the way it’s supposed to.

Hope everyone else is having a wonderful day! I know today is President’s Day so a lot of people have off today, but I’m in the minority where I’m working today but it doesn’t stop me from acting like a fool by dancing and singing hahaha.

Enjoy your day people!

M.

Feeling Excited

I just wanted to write today about the new novel I’m working on. I’m super excited about this one and I am not giving it away. I feel more inspired this time around with writing. I feel like the words are just pouring out of me. I don’t know if anyone has ever experienced this before but I’m really loving it.

Today I wrote a ton of pages and I felt like I couldn’t stop, but I finally took a break. Lately writing for me has been hard, I was having little inspiration. Yesterday’s blog post I wrote of 9/11 and ever since then I guess I feel like I woke up. I needed something to kick me in the ass to get me motivated. I’m here and breathing and healthy and I need to live, if that means writing then so be it. I come to realize that writing is my thing, I love it. If I can express myself then I will do so. I never imagined that this is where I would be in my life, but things happen for a reason and that’s the path that you walk down. I will continue to do what I love to do.

I feel like I got a lot accomplished on this book and I feel really good about it, which is all that matters. If I wrote this book and I was dissatisfied then I would have to scrap it but I feel something inside me that is amazing. It’s like a flower blooming inside my chest, a world that opened up for me. That’s why I’m excited! Thanks to all you wonderful people for reading my blog and I hope you get the chance to read my first novel called Not Alone on Amazon. Just type in the search box my name Melissa Rose Bushey, I found that was a lot easier then putting in the title because there are apparently a lot of books called Not Alone. A Novel. 🙂

Much love everyone!

M.

Valentine’s Day

So it’s that time of year for candy, sweet gifts, and love if your in a relationship with someone. But hey if you have friends that you love you can also share it with them. I just wanted to throw my 2 cents in about this holiday. It’s every girls dream to have flowers delivered and all that romantic stuff but I wanted to take a minute to say something strange. I don’t know maybe I’m weird but as I was thinking about today something made me think of 9/11 and I have no idea why.

I was sitting here thinking  of what to write about for my daily blog and 9/11 swept through me. I went on YouTube and saw a documentary about that horrific day and I watched it. I felt horrible and saddened by the events that took place. I know today is supposed to be a happy day of love and kisses and puppies but I don’t know I just felt something wash over me with 9/11. I have no idea what that means, but it gave me a moment to reflect on that day. It made me think of the people that died on that day and the people that lost someone that was involved whether it was the World Trade Center or the planes that went down.

Maybe instead of thinking what I could be getting from the hubby, I should be thinking about other people instead, of what people lost. I’m definitely not trying to be a Debbie downer, I’m really not. It’s just strange for something like that to pop into my head like that and now it’s stuck in my head. All those people trapped in that building and they couldn’t get out and the only thing that some of them could think of was throwing themselves off.

Okay I’m done with that, that was totally depressing and I wasn’t trying to be. That was just running through my mind. Please try and enjoy your Valentine’s Day people. Think romantic and funny and cute and amazing thoughts. Much love to each and every one of you!

M.

Change

Do you welcome change? I honestly think for me it depends, I change my hair all the time, I don’t know why,I just do and I like it. But changing things like jobs, houses, things basically that are major life changes now that kind of scares me. There were things I could’ve changed a few times but because I have this fear of change I didn’t. I know I should get out of my comfort zone. There is a strange thing that is about me where I don’t like change but I am very impulsive. So it’s funny how I hate change but can change something in an instant but realize hey that’s not what I want and then I change it quickly. If you ask anyone that knows me pretty well they would say, “Yes she’s definitely impulsive, changes her mind all the time.” I don’t know what my deal is. 

So I just wanted to do a short little blog today just asking how people deal with change. Do they just do it, do they work up to it, do they not even do it? I’m just kind of curious because with me I feel like change makes me crazy but at the same time it makes me feel better. I change my living room around all the time, just ask my husband. He comes home and is like again. A few months back I changed my bedroom from upstairs to downstairs, loved it for a minute and then had to change it back to upstairs, I think my husband was going to kill me hahaha. 

Anyways I know today is Monday and they are the worst. Who made weekends only two days? I’m like who can seriously deal with that, but we have to. Okay I’m starting to go off on a rant so I’ll end it here. 

Have a fast and easy going Monday everyone!!

M. 

Time..

Time. Where did it go? It feels like not long ago I was just a little girl playing outside with rocks, yes rocks. That sounds strange now that I’m writing it hahaha. This was way back before cell phones and all that social media stuff. But I really would like to know where time went. When I was a kid I just wanted to be an adult and now that I’m an adult I wish I were a kid. It’s strange when I think of things like that. Time just goes so quickly, you’re here today but you can be gone tomorrow. You never know when your time is up.

It took me 30 years to know what I wanted to do with my time. I want to write! When I was a kid I wrote all kinds of short stories, crazy ones. I think back to then and realized I did have a creative mind but I never really thought about it then. I wanted to be a teacher when I was about 8 but then as I got older that wore off and then I wanted to be a nurse. Eventually that dream just fizzled out and now after I finished my first novel, I sit here and I know that is what I was meant to do, I wanted to be a novelist. Writing is like my outlet and it helps me with my anxieties with what I face everyday, which I won’t get into. I read so many books, I love it. I know not many people like to read anymore but for me it’s something that helps me escape everyday life. You fall in love with characters and you visit places you’ve never been before. You experience what they experience and you feel what they feel. I love the when I get lost in a book and hours go by and it’s over. But then you pick it up again or get another book and you start all over again.

So can time heals things? I guess you never really heal from things, you just get over them.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

M.

You Never Know..

You really never know what kind of day you’re going to have until you’re actually starting your day. I was in the process of having a horrible day because I spilled coffee all over my kitchen counter and floor today. However, instead of getting pissed about it and yelling, I actually started to laugh, because what is the point? There really isn’t a point to get all mad and get your blood pressure on the rise because of some stupid mistake you made.

But I have to tell you something, last night while I was sleeping, my lovely husband decided to do something that I’ve been wanting him to do for the longest time, and no it wasn’t sexual, it was actually moving a piece of exercise equipment. Well my amazing dog, Buddy,which he is literally scared of everything and he’s a bulldog so you would think he’s just a tough little man. He’s not! He’s actually quite the opposite, he’s a big baby. I’ll take the blame for that, I just baby him and a lot. I can’t help it, I love him so much. So yes, he’s really spoiled, he likes to lay on me and cuddle with me and he’s super heavy but he’s my lap dog. Wow I just totally went off on a rant about my dog haha. So anyway, back to last night, so my dog sees this piece of equipment and he just can’t stop barking. He’s like deathly afraid of it and it woke me up out of a sound sleep.I ran downstairs furious and just flipped out. I mean it wasn’t my husbands fault it was Buddy’s, but I was half asleep and I just couldn’t really tell what was going on, so I cursed out the hubby and I went back to bed. Today I woke up super tired and I felt bad about yelling last night. So this morning I wrote him a nice little text apologizing.

That was obviously before I spilled the coffee all over the counter and on the floor which I laughed about. I decided that today I was going to write some more of my new novel, and I just felt like today was going to be one of those days where I wouldn’t have any inspiration, but when I started to write I couldn’t stop. That was most definitely a good thing. What I take out of all of this is that you wake up and you feel like you’re going to have one of those horrible crappy days but it ends up being a good day. You never know.

Have a good day everyone!!

M.

and if you haven’t already done so, please check out my Novel on Amazon called Not Alone by Melissa Rose Bushey.

Yoga

So today I wanted to talk about yoga. It’s a wonderful thing yoga and it’s been around for many many years but didn’t seem to get popular until the 21st century.

I tried doing yoga about 5 years ago and I didn’t like it. I had a horrible experience and it just didn’t feel right to me. I then came across a new studio a little over a year ago. I decided to try it out with my mom and when I did, I loved it. It was just a brand new experience for me. From going in and the atmosphere surrounding me to the actual room where we did the yoga and it just made total sense to me and I was hooked immediately. The other yoga class I went to wasn’t even a yoga studio. It was at a park nature center and it was cold, dark, dirty, and the teacher just wasn’t that great. So I think that makes all the difference, finding the perfect studio and teacher.

Now I go to yoga a few times a week and do all kinds of yoga, depending on my mood. I tried meditation for the first time the other night and it was very nice. Very relaxing and definitely very helpful with taking my stress away.

I really recommend doing yoga, it really does help with stress and stretching feels so amazing. It can be a workout though depending on the kind of yoga you do. I did try Barre yoga a few times and that was so tough but it was a great workout, however, I was sore for a few days afterwards. I enjoy a class where I can relax and all my cares and stress just melt away.

So that’s my yoga talk for today. I hope everyone has an amazing day!

M.