Catching up

Its been awhile since I’ve wrote anything on my blog so I wanted to do some catching up. The year is about to end. It’s crazy how fast the year went.

It was a year ago about a week ago since I published my first novel Braver Than Yesterday (formerly known as Not Alone). I’ve had such a wonderful time experiencing everything that had to do with the writing. Whether it was from the book signings that took place this year to even finishing my second novel From Within. I feel so blessed to have this gift of creativity bestowed upon me. I always wanted to do writing but I was always afraid to dabble with it.

This year I also took a writing course to brush up on skills. It was very informative and interesting. I enjoyed writing stories in the class. I wrote my very first short story and felt compelled to send it to some magazines but have yet to hear from them. It’s all good though, at least I tried.

Also this year I got a second job to help out with bills, which actually hasn’t been too bad. I don’t mind it really.

I lost my grandfather this year which was really sad. I will sure miss him.

There were some health scares in my family but nothing major so that’s good.

In the coming year I’m hoping for some new things. I’m hoping to pick up an agent for my novels. I’m hoping to complete at least two novels this year.

I also would love to expand my family this year. So we’ll see what happens with that. I’m ready for 2018 to be the best year yet. How about you?

 

Part-time Nightmare

I didn’t want to but I feel like I didn’t have a choice. I decided to get a part time job at a local grocery shop just to make some extra cash for Christmas, bills, and what not. Let me tell you, this post is about my experience of that dreadful day.

I was already unhappy that I got a second job and being that I write and it takes up a lot of my time it was hard to put that to the side. My full time job just isn’t cutting it with the times where we are now. Anyways I put on my lovey uniform that we are expected to wear and head off. Driving there was the worse, it was rush hour so it was bumper-to-bumper traffic. I’m waiting patiently listening to some music, trying to get my nerves under control because I’m a thirty something woman and I’m not used to this game anymore. I used to work for many retailers in my day like Best Buy, Sears, American Eagle, Gap, etc. but that was in my early twenties. When I was trying to figure out who I was.

After surviving the nightmare of rush hour I finally make it to my destination and it was a mob scene. I weave through the people just so I can punch in on time. I go up to HR department, because I honestly don’t know what the hell I’m doing or supposed to be doing. They give me an apron and said to meet with this and that person. I’m like, “So where are they?” They tell me just go to the cashiers. So I put the apron on and head downstairs to the front of the store asking for these women that are supposed to train me. I go up to a girl who looks like she’s twelve and been there forever and she’s like uh they’re not here today. I look at her like she has three heads. I’m about to freak out because I’m like this place! She told me stand over by the podium because that’s where people go to wait for managers. So I’m standing there and nobody is coming for me.

Finally I had enough. I go up to one of the managers of the store and tell him my issue. He then proceeded to pass me on to another manager. That manager was like, “Hey come on I’ll take you where you need to go.” He walks me back over to the podium and he radios to another person. This person walks over to us and he appears to be about twenty. The manager then says to this kid, “Hey take care of her will ya.” At this point I feel like nobody knows what they hell they’re doing. This kid oh my god I wanted to punch in the face. He was rude, cocky, obnoxious and just a punk ass kid. He tells me to just bag and go to every cashier for e/o order. So I’m like okay but I’ve never done this before and he’s like don’t worry you’ll get the hang of it and he walks away.

I make my way to the cashiers line to bag and none of the cashiers say hello or even acknowledge I’m there. Now mind you I start looking at all the cashier and they’re all little kids. They’re all probably sixteen but they look like they’re twelve. I start bagging and nobody even says thank you. The only ones that said thank you was an older woman in her fifties and a high school kid. At least they said hello and asked some questions. Other than that, the girls that worked wore heavy makeup, big hoop earring, and gave me dirty looks. I’m thinking why are you looking at me like I just stole your job or even their boyfriends.

I was there a total of four hours and right before my shift is over, they said did you get your fifteen min break and I’m like no. They sent me to go on break and I take it. The rude ass dude from earlier hands me a pumpkin pie and some seafood from the deli to bring back to these departments. Mind you, I have no idea where any of this shit is. So I go do what I need to do and eventually find where there items are supposed to go and then I go on break. Fifteen mins go by and I’m like, “I have fifteen minutes left here.” So I stand there bagging what I can and then I’m gone. I was about to quit and never come back because that was hell on earth. There was poor management unlike I’ve ever seen. I called the HR department and let them know what an awful experience I had and that I was going to quit. She called me back and told me that there was an opening in a different department so I decided to take it. Needless to say, so far this has been working out. I’ll never go back to that nightmare ever again.

That was my awful experience and I wanted to write about it. People today are just ridiculous, especially teenagers. If I don’t have a screen on my face, then I guess I’m not worth talking to. Today’s youth lack social skills without a doubt. It’s a damn shame.

M.

Birthdays…

I love birthdays, I don’t care what anyone says. I know some people who hate them but I love them. Another year older and little more wiser. They just make me feel special. My birthday was yesterday and it was a wonderful day.

I took off from work to get a massage with my mama which was great! I really needed it. My husband treated me to some shopping and then we went out to dinner. While at dinner I received some fantastic news that an agent is requesting my work. I’m not going to get my hopes up but hey it’s finally nice to get recognized . I wrote my first book almost a year ago and wrote my second book about six months after that. The third book (which is the sequel to the second) is taking a little bit longer due to personal issues. It’s getting there, I’m a little over halfway done.

Anyways as I’m distracted by all that I just wanted to say birthdays are amazing. It means you made it another year and you have another year to look forward to. I know people always say “I’m getting old” well no shit, that’s the joys of growing and aging lol. Growing goes with experience I think.

I’m very appreciative to all the people that wished me a happy birthday yesterday. Friends and family and strangers 🙂 means a lot to me!

M.

Halloween

As the holidays are approaching rapidly I’m pulled to one of my favorite holidays, which is Halloween. I love it! The ghouls and goblins come out and it’s just a downright scary holiday. I love scary anything so this fits me to a T. My favorite genre of film is horror/science fiction. Stephen King is my favorite author so I can’t go wrong there. Last night I went on to Netflix and was excited to finally see Gerald’s Game was out so I immediately turned it on. Let me tell you, don’t watch this flick by yourself. After it was over I went outside to let my dogs out and I was scared shitless! I literally freaked myself out and ran back in the house hahaa it was pretty hilarious. So if you haven’t seen that then I recommend you watch it. I also since I’m a huge fan of the King I decided to watch the series The Mist. I have seen the movie but I was intrigued with what the series held. I turned it on and it was so different, different I mean then the movie. Of course the CGI was a lot better but I wasn’t all that impressed with the acting skills in that show. I will continue to watch it however because I only watched one episode and I was kind of stoked because the woman from the Vikings is in it.

So besides the movies and the television shows, there are books. I love horror novels as well. They give me a type of thrill and rush, especially Stephen King’s. So being that it is Halloween I recommend picking up a good thrilling novel. I just read Black Magick by an acquaintance of mine and I couldn’t put it down. It was thrilling and scary and it had just the right amount of evil in it. Whether you celebrate Halloween or not you can still enjoy a good spooky novel.

Also I wanted to let you know that the author expo is coming up! Yes sir ladies and gentleman it is November 4th in Bensalem, PA so if you’re in the area you should stop by. Click the link below to find out all the information and who will be there! Hope to see you there and Happy Halloween!!

Author Expo information

Experience

This past weekend I was able to experience something that I was really excited about. There was a local author expo that took place in my area that I decided to be a part of. I thought it was a wonderful experience. I was able to connect with other authors and see how they ran the show since this was my first time. I was really ecstatic when it started and I had my first sale right away. The teenage girls seemed to track me down and read the back of my books and fell in love. You see there were these pamphlets that were given out to everyone about the authors and what genre the authors typically write about. I sold a few copies that day and felt even more special when I signed them. They were so excited and they asked for advice because some wanted to be future writers. I will be attending another expo in November that is even closer to where I live so I’m hoping more people will show up. This definitely made me want to write even more! I loved that it brought joy to people young and old.

Another thing I wanted to talk about is that I decided to do a giveaway on Goodreads for my novel Braver Than Yesterday. So starting on Thursday the giveaway will start and it will last about a month until October 14th.

I also decided for a limited time I wanted to do a promotion for Braver Than Yesterday the kindle version on Amazon. So if you click on the link you can download it for free for today only! I would love for those that download and read it to also review it. Reviews are always a plus 🙂

Also, one last thing the sequel to From Within is coming along and hoping to have it ready within the next month or so! Very excited for this one!

So a few pieces of news for you lovely people out there that love to read thrillers/suspense novels there you go! I hope you enjoy and thanks so much for the love and support.

M.

 

Happenings

I’m pretty excited because I registered for classes again. I’m still doing the writing which believe me I will never let go but I need to finish school. I have 5 classes remaining and then I will finally get my Bachelor’s in Psychology. There’s really not much I could do with that but at least I will have it.

I’ve been fighting with myself for a couple of years whether or not I should finish, I would’ve finished awhile ago but since I have to pay out of pocket it’s a little bit harder to.

In about a week and a half I will be going to the author expo that’s taken place locally. I feel like finally I may actually catch a break. I want to get out there as much as possible and it really is hard. I’m on Goodreads so please check me out there! Also if you’re on Facebook check out my page Here and like my page 🙂

M.

Nostril Breathing

A few years ago before I got married I was a stressful mess. I was so worried about money and about paying for the wedding my husband and I were going to have. 6 months before I got married something happened to me that freaked me out. I started having heart racing. I went to the ER and they said it was just stress. They gave me something to calm down and sent me home. A couple days later it returned again. I would be up half the night freaking out which made the heart racing even worse. One morning I called my mom and told her I needed to go back to the ER. We went and this time they kept me over night. They did all these tests on me and determined the issue was stress/anxiety again. They said I need to stop drinking caffeine and relax. They gave me Xanax and sent me home the next day.

My point of this story is that here it is a few years later and I haven’t had any issues with the heart racing since. I started doing yoga three years ago and because of that I think it played a major part in helping me with my stress. In yoga we started this thing called alternate nostril breathing. It’s when you hold your thumb to one nostril and you inhale in the other nostril and then you exhale. Then you repeat on the other side, close the other nostril and inhale and exhale. When I did this it really helped me. If I start getting an episode which I rarely do, I do this and it really helps. I actually swear by it.

Anxiety and panic attacks are no joke! I would do anything or try anything to help me out!

M.

I’m Back..

I’m back from vacation, and yes I stated that in my last blog but I wanted to say it again because truly I am. I wrote a little bit and I’m trying to get back into the groove of things. My house is a mess so I’m in the process of cleaning but wanted to take a short break so I could write my blog. I’m feeling annoyed because my English bulldog is crying in my face for attention. I spoil the hell out of him, but who could blame me? He’s my kid 🙂

So anyways I’m feeling pretty good about my ideas for my next novels. I’m continuing the writing of my sequel to my second novel From Within. I have some pretty good ideas for a few other novels in mind, so that’s pretty exciting. My mind feels powerful when I write. It’s amazing the possibilities that can come out of it.

I really needed a break from everything and let my mind unwind for a bit. Sometimes you need that. I know I did. With working full time and trying to write and taking care of things around the house it can get pretty hectic sometimes. I’m hoping one day to carry out my goal and life long dream of being a full time writer/novelist. It’s about the only thing that makes me happy these days. The escape from reality that can I put down on paper. To escape to a faraway land that you’ve never been before. I love it!

I just wanted to thank everyone that has supported me along this journey. Also the people who read my books. I appreciate it very much! Hope ya’ll have a lovely Sunday!

M.

Why not

Writing for a living is a struggle, well for me it is. I’m trying to do it for a living and well it’s not turning out very well. Writing takes structure and words and well thought out planning. You give your life to it and what do you get in return? Nothing really, I mean yeah the desire that you wrote this piece of art and you let everyone read it. Words that pour from your soul onto a piece of paper. Some people don’t even care about it. They look at it and go eh and that’s it. I’m hoping for more then that. 
Have you ever seen Girl Boss? I want that life. The life where you don’t care what people say, you’re going to do it anyway and your way. If writing makes me happy so be it, I want to be happy! I want to be my own boss, I want to write and sell my books. I want to wake up each morning knowing that somewhere in the world there is someone reading my book. That shit makes me happy and there is no one that can tell me otherwise. So thanks to everyone who purchased my novels and to those who read it. You are the best people in this world because you’re a passionate reader and you took the time out of your busy life to read the words that I wrote! I appreciate YOU! 
Don’t take shit from anyone! You do what you want to do!
M. 

Goal

I know it’s been awhile since I wrote anything on my blog but I’m still here. My mood reflects my writing so this won’t be the most positive post. I haven’t had the ability to continue writing the sequel to my second book because I lack ambition. Hopefully I can get it back because it’s not fun being down and not able to focus. All I can think about is everything else that’s going on in my life. 

I’m trying hard to promote my book. I was so happy that my yoga studio allowed me to put my books in their boutique. When I went there last night, one was sold. I was really happy! Things like that make me really happy and in all honestly I want to make people smile and feel good. My books are on smashwords and Amazon and they’re on Goodreads. I am happy that they’re both out there but I hope one day I’ll be successful and reach my goal of becoming a full time novelist. That’s my real passion. But for right now I’ll do what I can to get it out there!

M.