Weekend

I wait all week for the weekend to come, because come on it’s the weekend. A time for me to sleep in and relax. I’m excited too because I get to have a few drinks and don’t have to wake up early the next morning. So Friday I drank wine and caught up on shows, which is another plus for the weekend. I found a new Netflix show that I absolutely am addicted to. It’s called The Returned, I believe it’s an A & E show. I pretty much binged the whole weekend. 

Saturday I went to breakfast, worked out, went to church because I feel bad for my mom taking my grandparents all by herself, and had game night. I love games, all kinds of games. Whether it’s board games, card games, or video games. It holds a special place in my heart. I played scattergories and I must admit I hate this damn game. Especially when I’m two drinks in because I cannot think. It’s becomes embarrassingly funny. I lost the game of course. Then it was on to Yahtzee, a much easier game for when you drink. I won that game! Go me!

Sunday started off pretty good. I went to yoga and afterwards went to the local farmer. Got some goodies and headed home. My mom and I decided to go kayaking, which I really do love but yesterday I had a terrible experience. We went to a lake and there were millions of bugs and I hate bugs. I’m sorry but I hate most bugs. Had millions of bugs all over me and all over my kayak. Im like oh my god can I even do this? I did and it ended up being an okay time. I go home shower and relax for the night because I am exhausted and because hello Game of Thrones is on. As I’m sitting there in my couch I start rummaging through my hair and I feel something. I’m like wtf is that?! My husband try’s to convince me I’m nuts and I’m like no I feel something. Finally I got it, pulled it out and it was a freaking tick. Needless to say I freaked out. Freaked out bad! I’m like rubbing the hell out of my scalp, making sure there are no more. Note to self: wash hair after coming home from park. I barely slept, I’m thinking it bit me but I don’t know if it really did. My husband checks my scalp and he sees nothing. He went to work, I tried to go to bed but nope wasn’t happening. I got up and washed my hair and combed the shit out of it haha. Went back to bed and woke up fine. My scalp is a little sore, maybe from rubbing it and pulling out hair, I’m not sure. Hopefully the evil tick didn’t bite me, but don’t think it did since I found it in my hair not on scalp. But hey you never know. Needless to say that ruined my weekend. I got up this morning and washed it again just because. 

On a happy note Game of Thrones was awesome!! Hope everyone had a better weekend then me! Let’s get through this Monday!

M. 

Remember..

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As I sit outside on this glorious day I’m reminded how beautiful the world really is. I’m really grateful for who I am and for what I am. Everyday I scroll through Facebook and I see this happening and that happening, things that aren’t good, and their happening to people just like you and me. I should be grateful for the things that I have and grateful for my health. I am one of those people that complains, complains a lot. That’s just not healthy, so why do it? Is it because I can’t help it? Is it because it gives me something to do? Is it because I like to hear my own voice? Who knows truly why except for me, and honestly I really don’t know why. I know being positive would be much more motivating then being negative, but I am a creature of habit. I truly can’t help it. I even watched those motivating videos and I’m like yes you can do this, but then I go right back to being negative. I’m not writing this to be negative, I’m writing this because right now I’m positive. I’m positive because I have a family that loves me, I have a husband that adores me, I have 4 wonderful pets that I wouldn’t trade for the world they are considered my kids. I have my health and everyone around me is in good health, and I’m so thankful and grateful for that. I had a biopsy done last week on my leg that the dermatologist has seen, but thankfully I received a phone call that said I’m in the clear.

Just remember to be grateful for something. Even if there are horrible things going on around you, just look inside yourself and see the good. Nobody can take that away from you. I’m grateful for writing. It may not be much and I know I’m not accomplished but it’s what I enjoy. Would I love to be successful at it? Of course I would but I’m grateful for even trying. It never hurts to try, because if you don’t try you’ll never know.

Did you know birds are my favorite animal? They are and they are because they don’t have a care in the world. They fly around from place to place, grab food, and continue on. They can fly high up in the sky, take in the world and continue on. I think they’re amazing. Today and this past week there has been a white bird around my yard. I think he was someone’s bird. It’s a Parakeet after all, I mean how many wild birds are Parakeets? I want to capture him and keep him but he won’t allow to come near him, plus I think my husband wouldn’t let me keep it. But he looks lonely and he’s all by himself sitting up in a tree. I feel bad for the poor bird. Hopefully he’ll come to his senses and fly to me.

Okay enough for today, I know it’s Friday. I hope everyone has a good weekend!! I’ll talk to you soon.

M.

Down..

I know it’s been a few days since I wrote about my rehearsal experience. Thursday night was canceled so I didn’t have anything to report and my weekend was just crazy. So I’ll start with Friday night:

So I’m really excited because they started placing people in spots and where they put me was directly in center. I’m like okay this is great, I’m where all the action is. They didn’t tell me what I should be doing, so I just sat there. You would think they would be like, “Hey can you look at the actors that are talking on stage or hey can you act like your the stenographer,” which that’s what was I assigned. So we go through the rehearsal a few times and finally it’s time to go home and I was beat. Granted I did have a glass of wine before rehearsal because hey it’s Friday and I worked all day and wanted to have some downtime. Anyway I was excited because I was down in the center. Until the next day…

Saturday comes and we have rehearsal from 2 to 6. I’m kind of excited because you know my part is in the front where all the action is. So we sign in and we get started and they told us to get in our places and we do. We sit down and all of a sudden they say, “I want to make some changes. You get in the back.” Which they were referring to me. I was so disappointed and pissed off. They never gave me a reason why they moved me. So I went from front row to all the way in the back where you can’t even see me. Needless to say I was feeling pretty pissed off and it hurt a little but I guess that shit happens.

Sunday comes and I’m dreading to go. We have to be there from 11-6 and it was going to be a long day. I knew going in there that it was going to blow. A million times I wanted to get up and walk out and thought hey they is BS. Oh I forgot to mention, Saturday night I emailed the assistant director asking why I was moved and he never emailed me back. I was waiting on Sunday to see if he would say anything to me but nothing ever came. When lunch break came I was steaming, I needed a drink and yes I had one. Maybe I’m acting like a child I don’t know but I was just so mad. My husband was telling me that I’m making a big deal out of it and that it wasn’t personal, but to be honest it felt personal. Especially if they didn’t even give me a reason. If I was doing something wrong I really would’ve liked to know so I could’ve fixed it. But hey maybe that’s the acting world.

After that weekend I’ve been feeling depressed. My book isn’t selling and I haven’t heard from any agents regarding my book. I try to not get discouraged but come on, I feel like I’m having all these bad things that aren’t going my way so it’s hard to stay positive. I love to write it’s my passion but sometimes I sit and think why am I here on this earth, is there a purpose? Sorry I’m just venting. I’ll stop here. Thanks for listening!

M.

A Change…

Hey everyone! I hope everyone is having a great weekend, some of you may have a longer weekend that others but I hope you enjoy it. I also want to wish everyone a Happy Easter if you’re celebrating. 

So I wanted to let everyone know that the workshops are going pretty well with the show that I’m in. It just started so it’s all fairly new to me. 

Also I wanted to let everyone know that I decided to go a different route instead of Amazon. I took my novel off of there and decided to go with Barnes & Noble. I also changed the title to Braver Than Yesterday because it honestly it just makes more sense. I’m very excited about it so I hope everyone takes a peak at it. Thank you all for your love and support. 

Have a great day!

M. 

Audition pt 2

I did it! I did my second audition and it went great. I’ll find out Monday if I got the part. I’m so excited and it was a wonderful experience so if I didn’t get the part hey it’s okay it was fun. 

I also wanted to mention if you haven’t checked out my novel Not Alone on Amazon, please do. It’s a entertaining suspense novel that will leave you hanging off the edge of you seat. I promise you won’t be disappointed. 

With that said have a wonderful Saturday my beautiful people! 

Not Alone.: A Novel https://www.amazon.com/dp/1520143257/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_aNs6yb532RXKJ

Finally..

It is Friday!! Finally the week is ending which means I get to enjoy the weekend. Tomorrow is my second audition which I’m kind of nervous about but more excited at this point. Tomorrow morning now that may be a different story. Please send positive thoughts for me 🙂 

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

M. 

Weekend

Hope everyone has a great weekend!! It’s beautiful where I live!! 

Finally it’s here, the week was sooo long it felt like. I’m happy to be home and relax and get some writing done. Enjoy yourself on this beautiful weekend!

Much love!

M. 

Time..

Time. Where did it go? It feels like not long ago I was just a little girl playing outside with rocks, yes rocks. That sounds strange now that I’m writing it hahaha. This was way back before cell phones and all that social media stuff. But I really would like to know where time went. When I was a kid I just wanted to be an adult and now that I’m an adult I wish I were a kid. It’s strange when I think of things like that. Time just goes so quickly, you’re here today but you can be gone tomorrow. You never know when your time is up.

It took me 30 years to know what I wanted to do with my time. I want to write! When I was a kid I wrote all kinds of short stories, crazy ones. I think back to then and realized I did have a creative mind but I never really thought about it then. I wanted to be a teacher when I was about 8 but then as I got older that wore off and then I wanted to be a nurse. Eventually that dream just fizzled out and now after I finished my first novel, I sit here and I know that is what I was meant to do, I wanted to be a novelist. Writing is like my outlet and it helps me with my anxieties with what I face everyday, which I won’t get into. I read so many books, I love it. I know not many people like to read anymore but for me it’s something that helps me escape everyday life. You fall in love with characters and you visit places you’ve never been before. You experience what they experience and you feel what they feel. I love the when I get lost in a book and hours go by and it’s over. But then you pick it up again or get another book and you start all over again.

So can time heals things? I guess you never really heal from things, you just get over them.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

M.